Tuesday, June 22, 2010

i'm doing better

Today was a much better day. didn't wake up til noon.. so that made a difference... i'm looking for great exercises to do with toddlers. i found a few.. hopefully kori will want to get in on it too.


Monday, June 21, 2010

Back to the Drawing Board

I feel like a complete failure right now.. tomorrow is a new day and i will succeed at this weight loss thing.

i've been looking at pictures of me when i was in high school.. i was so tiny!! i want to get back to that. REALLY BAD!! i've got to stop with all the awful food.

I did make an AWESOME chicken meal tonight. had broccoli and fruit with it. so i guess it was a successful day.

tomorrow's game plan is to figure out a great way to work out with kids. any suggestions?

Sunday, June 20, 2010


Well.. sorry for not keeping up on the blog...

i've had a rough couple of days... finding out a friend passing away.. and lots of homework..

needless to say my diet really hasn't been flying. i've been trying to get healthy things if/when i go out. it's really hard since a lot of the time, my comfort is food... i did actually eat some dinner last night.. it was just corn... but it's better than what i WAS going to eat.

I am not wanting to fail... please oh please don't let me fail at this...

i want this more than ANYTHING at the moment.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Day 3 - Complete Disaster

-- End of Day 3 --

Well, today didn't really go as planned. I worked from 12:30 to 5, but in the middle of the work day, my sugar plummeted so low I thought I was going to pass out. APPARENTLY, lunch is a big deal when you have a sugar problem. I did manage to get it under control. Thankfully. I didn't want to go off my diet today.

I started out really well. Measured out 1/2 a cup of granola low-sugar cereal and a 1/2 cup of milk. It was really yummy. And of course, my coffee. Can't forget that. Then it all went downhill. I realized what time it was AFTER I finished my hair. Nearly noon. I still had to get Kori ready.

I thought, "Hmm.. I'll just get some fruit or a salad." YEAH, wrong!! I didn't get anything for lunch. Thus causing my sugar attack. So, I HAD to get something in my system to make the shaking stop. What's high up on sugar?!? CHOCOLATE! I had the 3 Musketeers Truffle again since it's still low in calories. I also had a Diet Coke. Yeah, those didn't help. Then, a coworker told me to eat a few of her wings she got for lunch. I ate 2. Still didn't help. I finally got a Twix bar and gobbled that down really fast. FINALLY I WAS STARTING TO FEEL BETTER. Not 100%, but better.

Now, I know those things weren't good for me, but considering what I was going through, does it really count? I had to get myself feeling a lot better or else pass out. My manager ALMOST called the hospital for me. I really wasn't that great. But, anyway...

I also didn't manage to get the scale tonight. I'll definitely get it tomorrow for SURE!! I find this blog is REALLY holding me accountable for everything. I know I don't have a large gathering or anything. But knowing I have to put EVERYTHING on here really helps me not to cheat.

I'm thankful for that.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

TEMPTA-- Oh I give In

Today was NOT a good day to be me. I gave in to those delicious temptations. I DID get the lowest calorie piece of chocolate though... 170 calories for 2 bars of 3 musketeers truffle. It was yummy..

Then.. I ordered pizza for dinner. I'm ridiculous!! I want to lose weight!! I need to lose weight..

I guess I have to set a goal. Each week I will weigh myself and post it on this blog. I want to lose at LEAST 10 pounds by October. Do you think that's manageable? I surely hope so.

I'm buying a scale tomorrow after work. I'll put the dreary number in then.

Day 2 - Operation TEMPTATION

-- Start of Day 2 --

Man, I really just did NOT want to wake up and get out of bed this morning. I did though. Got my shower taken, coffee made, hair done, ready for work.. and then I remember. IT'S 5:30 IN THE MORNING!! why oh why do I have to get up so early?!? Oh wait, that's right. WORK!! Gotta make that money!

As I said last night, I did very well at the grocery store last night. But, this morning, I just have LITTLE motivation to get up and get to work. I even have to pack my lunch for work. I know. Complaining about it isn't going to help. Just makes me feel a little better. One thing I really hope is the day goes by quickly at work. I have a TON of stuff to do around the apartment it seems. And I'm sure Kori isn't going to just let me clean. Most of the problem is the stupid garage sale stuff while I'm taking to Goodwill. Which I'll probably do tomorrow if I don't work. :-)

Ok.. time to get up and moving. I don't think I'm going to eat cereal. I think packing my lunch and adding a bit of fruit to my lunch will suffice for now.

Well, time to get my bum in gear.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Operation Grocery : COMPLETE SUCCESS!

---End of Day 1---

I found several recipes online giving me good ideas for delicious and HEALTHY meals. I compiled a grocery list and went to town.

NEEDLESS TO SAY!! I didn't stray from that list except for 2 things. One was suckers for Kori when she uses her potty chair. The other was eggs. So all in all I think it was a very successful trip. I ate a little snack of whole wheat crackers and cheese before I left so I wouldn't be tempted to eat something while shopping. I can honestly say I am proud of myself. It is a rare occasion when I can say that and be truthful. I feel confident I can finish this task and still actually EAT!! I feel completely satiated with the dinner I had.

Tacos (made with lean beef) and a cup of Key Lime Pie yogurt that was only 50 calories!

As I stated before, MISSION COMPLETE!

Day 1 - Operation Grocery

Well.. here we go. I am going on a scavenger hunt to find delicious recipes to fix for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I am SERIOUSLY not wanting to sacrifice taste in order to have a healthy meal. I am going on a diet of 1200 calories a day. I have a basic structure for this diet. It breaks down how much I can have for each meal.

For breakfast, I can have some fruit, some milk, a couple helpings of bread, and what they call "free food"

For lunch, I get some meat, couple helpings of bread, a fruit, some fat, and again some "free food"

I can have fruit for an afternoon snack. Obviously, since I'm not a huge fan of fruit, I'm going to work around all the fruit aspects of it.

Dinner is where it sounds AWESOME!! I can have 2 helpings of meat, some bread, veggies, fruit, a little fat, and, YOU GUESSED IT, "free food".

I can have an evening snack too! A bread and milk.

Along with that list, it gives me options I can have for each food group. There are LOTS of options in it. Now the issue is what am I going to fix that is BOTH healthy and delicious. I will be going to the grocery today, but first I have to figure out what meals I'm going to make.

Does anyone out there have delicious HEALTHY recipes?? Any and all would be GREAT!!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Start of a Journey

So.. every story has to start somewhere. Here's mine.

I feel like I've done NOTHING for the past two years since my daughter was born. I have turned into a self loathing COW, which is DESPISE!! I have tried everything from dieting heavily to walking daily. Nothing seems to help.

Well, I think a major problem with my "workout routine" is I don't stick with it. It's the flaw of humanity. We start things and never finish. Well, if it kills me, I'm going to finish this.

I am 22 years old. I had my daughter when I was 20 and I weighed 130 when she was born. By the time I got out of the hospital, the water weight sent me up to 140. Luckily, I dropped MOST of the weight in the first few months. Then 2 years later, here we are. All the weight back because I'm one of those people who thinks "oh this should be good enough, right?" WRONG!!!

I have decided here and now, I want a support system. That's where you come in. I need you, yes YOU! Sitting at that computer screen reading a blog about a girl wanting to lose 30+ pounds. I need you to encourage and support me in this desperate time of need for me. I am cutting back nearly EVERYTHING I love in the edible world. I am going to become almost vegetarian for a while, just so I can get my metabolism to digest the wonderful things known as fruits and vegetables. I love them. I really REALLY do. It's the fruit I can't stand.

Here's the mission: Lose 30+ pounds all in good time. I'm not saying in a month. I'm not saying in 6 months. I want to be a healthy person who makes good decisions when it comes to food. I will be making a weekly goal to lose a certain amount of weight that week. I'll be posting pictures, meals, exercise routines.. whatever I can think of which I'll need criticism with. BE HATEFUL!! Make me want to punch you in the mouth! Don't do it just to be doing it. Do it because you want me to succeed. I need this. I need this like you need food. I don't need it anymore. I am not it's slave.


If any of you have ANY suggestions on how I should come about to losing this weight, it is greatly appreciated. I know I can't do this on my own. Support is something I desperately want. And you all are the ones to give it to me. THANKS!